Kaiden Blake

    First and foremost, I'd like to apologize for the lack of updates as of late. The past week has been such a rush on many different scales; scales, however, are hard to balance.

    Rainy days have always cleansed my spirit. With all the aesthetics around me, it's nice to stray away from delusion, ironically by a medium which essentially erodes everything within its path. Speaking of rain, I have a place in my heart for the word "galoshes." Say it out loud - how can you not love it? I think I'm going to try to bring them back in style, not to say they ever were. If crocs can make it, galoshes can. I'll hunt down a pair of neon ones soon. Wouldn't you sport these?






    As "they" say, imitation is the sincerest form of flattery. I've been approached time and time again about a certain individual seeking to be an "internet celebrity" whom I will not name. Why? Because I have tact. This individual has taken ideas from just about every other person on the internet who has made a name for themselves; that's fine. What's not fine, however, is to deliberately bash them directly afterwards, and then claim "I'm over the drama, y'all." I give respect where it's deserved, no matter who you are. It fails to amaze me how so many people in this industry are such low, negative people. When negativity is constantly thwarted outwards, one should not be surprised when they realize they're merely playing on a racketball court. I have a natural ability to market things; I, however, refuse to sell out and cash in in all of the wrong ways. I have respect for others and for myself, and if it means I stay underground awhile longer than others who are only seeking 15 minutes of fame, so be it - at least I made it in the industry with dignity. I refuse to ride off the coat-tails [positively, or negatively] of those who have already accomplished their goals. I do talk to several internet celebrities, but name-dropping will get you nowhere. There's so much more to me than meets the eye, or the pixels on your screen, and the reason I refuse to dispel a lot of information is solely due to my respect. I am far from a saint, but effort is key. I hate to even acknowledge this situation, but I've known about it for months, and I just feel it was necessary to reflect on it in a general sense.



    That game is so addicting. I suddenly have an urge to work at a hot dog stand and go as crazy as I do in that game. I hate being rushed, yet I love challenges. Is it ironic that I'd have more of a struggle working at a fast food restaurant than I do at modeling/singing/etc? I give it up to them, man. Anyhow, go to this site to check out my newest addition to late-night, insomnia-induced joy.

Kai
xo

Last night I wanted to win that totem pole guy. He squeaks, too.

Anyhow, I just got back from a 6 hour photo shoot, and I'm getting ready to go back out again. I'm the energizer bunny, I just need a drum and rabbit ears. The past few days I've been busy doing people's hair, laughing on floors for hours on end, watching movies, going out into town, spending time at the bean, planning shoots, making business phonecalls, talking to companies, and much more.




That's a friend & I at Denny's at around 12:30 am looking pretty busted, but all in good fun.  Love that restaurant.We walked in, and literally everyone in the restaurant looked and stared us down. Kind of creepy.

Lately I've been running into a lot of old friends, which has been pretty neat for the most part. I'm driving out about 30 minutes away and staying the night with a few friends. Should be fun.

Have you been making new plans/enjoying the weather latley as much as I have?

Love you guys,
Kaiden

  
    I treat my body like a vehicle. Essentially, it is one - it's merely a vesicle my thoughts are contained in. I'm constantly yearning for change; I will never be satisfied with my apppearance, not to say I am not content, but rather that I always have the urge to "one-up" myself. I suppose I am my biggest competition - my own rival, if you will. I need change lately, and it's not coming soon enough.

    I suppose I've been feeling hollow lately because I haven't had any real work to immerse myself in. I'm still in hibernation mode, and I need to get around to my internal Spring cleaning phase. I am constantly recycling and removing excess baggage from my life, both physically and mentally. I go through a phase (usually after Winter) in which I clear my room out, clean my car, change my appearance drastically, and start clearing my mind of fragments that never really found a mate to unify with.

Only $350,000; what a bargain.

Anyhow, things are steady lately. From the 24th-30th I have a few photoshoots. Tons of gold, me being a seamonster, and a few surprises. I ordered a whole bunch of stuff off of ebay, so hopefully it'll get here soon. The weather keeps shifting back and forth lately, though I'm just happy the sun is out. It can be zero degrees as long as I've got my sun.

What's more important to you - the temperature, or the sun?

    Does anyone remember that game? God, I used to play that for hours on end. My favorite character was "Tiny Kong," because for some reason, I thought all the girls in video games kicked some pretty serious ass, to put bluntly. Hah, to be 8 years old again. Anyhow, as often as I played it (I even got my Aunt into it) I was never able to finish it because I moved around so often. So, my goal is to find someone to beat it with once and for all. I'd finally be able to put it up on the shelf and forget about it forever.

    I'm going out to one of my favorite cities in the area tonight and having some amazing Italian grub. I need to head into the shower so I'm not fashionably late for once. I got a call from my eye doctor, and my glasses are finally in. I have 20/20, though I have a slight astygmatism they want to fix. So, expect photos of me roughing it like a total nerd soon (hey, what do you expect from a guy who talks about DK64?).

Earlier today I went to the Henry Ford museum and again had non-stop nostalgia. Remember these?


Tamagotchi's


Furby's..hahaha, could never get that thing to work.


Sega Game-Gear


Etch A Sketch


Mr. Potato Head

Any exciting plans for your weekend?

P.S. Listen to this song. Who else had the audacity to rap that out loud?

Everything is peaceful and serene tonight. The future is both intimidating and fascinating. Lately, it's been a constant internal struggle - not to say I'm not happy, however. A mind can be a blessing and a curse that coincide with one another; parallel each other to form such a beautiful, vivid creature. I suppose I'm just deciphering the codes.

When it rains, it pours.

For once, I'm not speaking weather wise, though the weather has took a turn for the better as of late. On to my point, nothing seems to be going well lately. My computer crashed this morning, so now I'm without a desktop; it's at the shop, but I may lose all of my files in the process. Ironically enough, I just finished two t-shirt designs that I was going to send out this weekend, which is now obviously not possible. I could go on for days writing a post about what's been bothering me lately, but I'd rather not bore both you and I. Things will look up soon, so I'm not stressed out too bad. (That last part was a lie.)

Anyhow, cheer me up by telling me things that've made you happy lately.

1.) i saw that you had your marilyn done. did it hurt?
No. The lady had to pierce my monroe twice because the needle fell out - it was lots of blood and no pain.

2.) can anyone be a good photographer? (ive been thinking about SLRs for a week now, i cant stop thinking about iitt)
No. Anyone can have a good camera, but you have to be truly passionate and skilled to create quality photographs.

3.) Have you ever thought of writing songs?
I'm an aspiring singer/songwriter, so yes.

4.) can any one person be completely bad or completely good?
No. Everyone has positive and negative qualities, no matter how they try to showcase themselves.

5.) what is your purpose?
World domination.

6.) Oops, I mean, WHAT, would you do, for a Klondike Bar?!! Hahahaha
Haha, they still make those?

7.) what's your favorite song and why? I mean, is there a deeper reason behind you liking the song, other than "it rocks?" haha.
One of my personal favorites has always been "Life for Rent" by Dido. "I haven't ever really found a place that I call home, I never stick around quite long enough to make it" are the first two lines, and they couldn't apply more to my life and mindset. I have always been a nomad, never settling down in one place, in both a mental and physical sense.

8.) What's your favorite anime tv show/movie??
I don't ever watch T.V.

9.) If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
I want to travel around the world - everywhere. I want to see every single thing. I don't find this unrealistic, either.

10.) Ever been to Norway?
No. I'd love to, though.

11.) what's your favorite color?
Anything neon. Hot pink, lime green, electric blue.

12.) how tall are you?
5"11.

13.) what's your favorite brand of clothing or favorite designer..or even..favorite online store..?
Mostly underground stores. I don't like wearing something that everyone else has, so I do 95% of my shopping online.

14.) what's your favorite kind/flavor of slurpee?
It's discontinued, but blue vanilla was - pina colada is great, too.

15.) who is your favorite band or singer?
I hate band/song questions, because I truly don't have favorites. I listen to literally everything - I always get flack for that, but I have no shame in saying that. Unless someone can introduce me to something that I dislike, I stay rooted.

16.) which A Series of Unfortunate Events book is your favorite?
They're all a blur to me, now. I used to read them back in 5th grade and only got up to book 7 because I ended up moving every 2 months.

17.) what's your most embarrassing moment?
In first grade the teacher wouldn't let me go to the bathroom, so I pissed myself and ended up walking across the entire school to get my brother (who was in 8th grade at the time). My mom had to bring a change of clothes, and ended up bitching out the nuns who were at the time the principals. Haha, private schools.

18.) do you like dancing?
Yes.

19.) If dinosaurs can dance, do you think they can do the tango?
Yup.

20.) Can spiders really crawl into peoples ears and lay eggs?
I don't like thinking about that when I'm in bed, haha.

21.) If you had a chance to meet (insert dead celeb here) what would you say to them?
I have never been into the whole "celeb" ordeal. If anything, they'd be interesting to talk to, but I've never idolized anyone.

22.) Do you like corn?
Yeah, it's pretty good.

23.) What would you do if somebody set your pants on fire?
Put it out?

24.) What day of the week is your favorite day?
Saturday.

25.) What's your favorite kind of ice cream?
Chocolate chip cookie dough, hands down.

26.) What's your favorite book?
I'm a huge geek for this, but I love the Harry Potter series.

27.) If you can talk to a (insert animal here) what would you say to it?
Hah, no idea. Any extinct animal, I suppose.

28.) If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be and why?
I'm constantly changing. I suppose I wish I could settle down.

29.) Oh, and where do you see yourself 5 years from now?
In L.A. successful and finally accomplishing my goals.

30.) What was your strangest dream/nightmare ever?
I'm a bit psychic, so I forecast events in my dreams. To make a long story short, I had a dream where my cousin was in the hospital either dying or in excruciating pain, and five minutes my mom woke me up and we received a phonecall that the same cousin was in the hospital having extreme abdominal pains.

31.) If you could choose a storybook or novel to live in, which would it be?
All the fantasty worlds wrapped up into one.

32.) Weirdest combination of food in one sitting?
I'm always trying crazy things. The last thing I can remember was raw ramen and five pops mixed into one.

33.) Worst/best high school memories?
My entire school "career" was horrid. I hated every last thing about it all. It's funny to see who the joke is upon now, though.

34.) More seriously and because I'm Muslim, I have to ask- Feelings/thoughts about them?
I'm extremely open-minded. Be what you want to be, believe what you want to believe. I grew up in a heavily influenced muslim school for a few years, so I was exposed to many arab/muslim beliefs and traditions. I have no reason to think negatively of them.

35.) where is your favorite place to be?
My grandparent's house, where I used to live for a year or so. It's such an escape for me. I still have my bedroom there, and it hasn't been touched for the most part since I was around 9-11 years old.

36.) How long have you been writing?
Since I can remember, really.

37.) Hey i was wondering what made you decide to come onto buzznet??
I've been on social networking sites since around the age 12 or 13. I left the internet for a few years, but when I came back I saw what a great community this was.

38.) do you have any pets? if so..what are they?
I have a 2 year old boxer/beagle mix.

39.) what is something you can tell us about yourself thats not included on any of your profiles ANYWHERE?
There's so much to me that people don't know about. I suppose the majority of it lies within my childhood, and the hardships I've gone through. When my site finally gets launched I'll have a more thorough background.

40.) Where is your favorite place that you have a profile on?
Buzznet, followed by MySpace.

41.) What is your favorite place to eat?
Denny's.

42.) What do you do in your spare time?
I'm constantly working towards my career goals. Things have taken me such a long time because I'm doing it all alone. The entertainment industry almost ceases to exist here in Michigan, so I've just been doing the ground-work. Between my site, my clothing line, networking, contacting photographers, making music, writing, and everything else, I keep myself busy.

43.) Why did you leave the internet 4 so many yrs?
So many reasons.

44.) favorite seasons?
Spring and Summer.

45.) What is your favorite song that is on loop on ur ipod or mp3 player?
Lately, it's been an underground band. "Shh" by Donora.

46.) Guilty pleasures?
Going on shopping binges.

47.) What's your favorite color that your hair has been?
By far, the platinum blonde. It'll be back.

48.) whats your fave photoshoot or picture youve taken EVER?

49.) Are you happy?
I try.

50.) what nationality/nationalites are you?
50% greek, and a little bit of everything else; my family got around.

51.) what's your favorite food/meal?
Pita wraps.

52.) What are your favorite Authors? Poets?
Too many to list. I'm huge on poetry, but haven't read much of it, ironically.

53.) Whats your fav. animal?
Snow tigers, penguins, pandas, kangaroos, etc.

How foolish it truly feels to be put on a circular wheel that makes rounds on its own accord. I am a particle in a wave of magnitude. I am glimpses of myself in the mirror; I am only fragments of a whole entity. My life has played out like a mobius strip. It's nearly Spring, nearly out of hibernation, nearly slipping back. Always nearly. Nearly never, never near. Relapsing out of habit - out of habitat. My mind is racing at a hundred miles per hour. I never gave the approval for my mind to be a highway; oh, construction zone regulations.

I can't help but to notice how many people whom used to be a part of my life are now coming out of the woodworks. I was under the impression termites devoured the wood they thrived upon; the only thing that has remained for years is sawdust. Pure, wholesome oblivion.

Looking back, I've always felt as if I wasn't able to truly be "in the moment." For one reason or another, I was always driven to rise up beyond my age. I need to allow myself to think not about the past nor the future, but rather the present. I find myself struggling on issues that are second-nature to most. I am a warrior. I would not change my past or revert my hardships, but it is such a quaint thought to feel what it would like to have led an alternate life.

P.S. My "Life for Rent" CD by Dido has saved so many of my nights in the past years.

    As most of you know, I've been interested in photography for several years now. I have done amateur photography since I can remember, however my room is a black sinkhole, and I can't find the discs I saved the photos onto.

    The first two shoots are from about 3-4 years ago when I was working with a mere Kodak 4 megapixel digital camera. Fun times. The rest have all been shot within the last year. They were a spur of the moment type of deal, and the photoshoot from the last two photos made me nearly pass out.

I miss my long hair. Does anyone know any places to purchase high quality wigs from? Every time I look for male wigs I end up finding Dracula and Joe Dirt wigs. Even if you know of a female wig shop, I can always trim it - I'll be changing the color regardless.

Ah, I'm in love:

The dogs are outside barking
under the willow tree
artist locked up with writers block
set him free, set him free

Sun silhouettes before you're ready
morning will arrive earlier than expected
today still heavy with yesterday's news
eyelids covering what you rejected

Forgetting everything we've come to know
tiled floors and pick-me-up inspiration
these are patterns for concentration
compromise your situation for a parallel
when silver lining is rusted thin
you'll find material for allegation
discovering the state you're in

    In other news, I have spent far too much money this past week due to retail therapy. Stressed Kaiden = more shopping, less money. I buy all my clothes online, and though there are far more pros to doing so than cons, I become so impatient when waiting for everything to finally arrive.

    I finally got the prints for my old photoshoot way back when, so I'll be posting a few photos here and there in the next few days. I cannot wait until I get my hair back. I'm always switching things up, but I prefer long hair hands down. You won't see my hair short for a few more years.

Darling, I'll meet you on the other side
Remember, it's only dark if you let them see you
I can only testify for the sanctity within our minds
Don't let them,

The sweet voices inside your mind
Straight-jackets and product of our recipes
We'll lock us up in the pantry
Wait for them to go on home

Skitzophrenic were the words
From the airplanes above, so I've heard
Drifting, go on and see
What lifestyle you can live for free

Black ribbons on our eyes
If they find us we shall hide

    If it's not possible to overdose on caffeine, leave it up to me to find a way. I'm shaking so badly that I can hardly type - my fingers keep missing the right keys, so I'm surprised this isn't a garbled mess. On top of that, I've been peeing every ten minutes for the last two hours. Poor bladder.

    Anyhow, I think it's about time I do the whole "questionaire" thing. I know I haven't said much about myself in the recent past, so I want you all to ask me any sort of question you'd like; the more interesting and original, the better, but it's all fair game. I'll take your questions and hopefully answer them in a video (I need to post some, already!) or a journal entry. Ask as many questions as you'd like - the more, the merrier.

    I'm off to the bathroom yet again. Ask away!

xo

 
  I want to say thank you to everyone who has shown so much support for my endeavors. I was in hiding for so long, now, and I'm finally, long over-due, starting to emerge out of my hibernation. Between the fansites, the comments, and everything in the middle, I owe it to you guys. Keep buzzing my photos, suggesting them to be featured, and commenting. I may not comment everyone back, however I do read all mesages/comments, and try my very best to reply. It gets hectic with the influx of messages and comments through MySpace, Buzznet, and other websites, along with everything else. Unlike other hollywood hopefuls, I do not take one second of positive energy for granted. Without support, we wouldn't be where we are today - they wouldn't, nor I. This applies for all things throughout life.

    I have so many exciting projects coming up that I think you all will love. First and foremost, I will be sponsoring my friend's jewelry company within the next week or so. Expect tons of photos! Modeling shoots are coming up soon, with various talented photographers from my area. I am hoping to get to California by summertime to collaborate with some brilliant photographers that understand my passion. I know of a handful of exceptional talents who have said they would love to work together.

    I know the launch of my site is long over-due. Essentially, this has worked out for me. I am still getting everything in order. I spent years of my life away from everything - it's a challenge to re-organize my life, both physically and mentally. It's been such a rush, and in the midst of it all, I have been trying my best to keep sane. Mysteriousness aside, my site WILL be launched within the next two months. I'm still organizing everything and getting it together, and my site designer has had a hectic schedule as well as of late. I promise you'll all love it.

    So, that's it for tonight. A simple "thank you" to you all - for being here on the ride with me. :)

Love always,
Kaiden

P.S. I ate a homemade caesar salad with ranch dressing for the first time today. How've I missed out all these years?

Fast-forwarding to mid-day, my friend Erin and I had decided to go visit an old friend of ours. About ten minutes from my house, the ball bearing on the drivers' side decided to give way, causing us to block an entire intersection of traffic. At first it caught us off-gaurd, and then post-reaction, we laughed hysterically for nearly ten minutes. I lost count of the number of ambulances which had driven by, only to discover it was merely a mechanical problem. We stood on the street corner (prestigious, I know) while the rain poured down upon us. Cars were whizzing by and shouting profanities at us, which I retorted right back. Clearly if you have a disabled vehicle, you can't move it - especially when your tire has twisted 90 degrees in the wrong direction. Finally a cop had arrived, and had demanded us have a tow truck there within five minutes, because we were "holding up traffic." No, really? I'm sorry, I thought picking rush hour traffic would've been a real opportune time to have our car fall apart in the middle of an intersection - next time I'll try out the mornings. A friendly tow truck driver later and an eerie conversation about cell phones being operated by test tubes, we landed at the auto shop.

Would that put a damper on your day? We didn't let it stop us. We hitched a ride back to my house, grabbed my car, and re-headed back off to our friends' house. She had given us directions, which we disregarded, and ended up down a few blocks. We found her street and drove up to the house where our friends' cars were parked. We knocked on the door, and a man answered the door. He let us inside without a word, I took my shoes off, and we both continued into his living room. Erin had asked if our friends were downstairs, and he defensively answered "We don't have a basement!" Erin then yelled out the name of our friend down his hallway, which was returned by silence. After a bit of confusion, Erin finally asked if our friends even lived here. The man replied "No." At this point, I almost couldn't contain my laughter. I slipped my shoes back on, and her and I bolted out of the house. I was laughing for roughly twenty minutes straight, to the point in which my sides felt they wanted to escape my body. I have never had such a comical, surreal experience in my life. Why this man had let us into his house without knowing us, without questioning us, and acting as if everything was peachy-keen is beyond me. Some things are better left unanswered.

What a day.

Kaiden
xo

I felt detached. My boots trudged through the canvas of snow weightlessly. A thousand degrees below zero, with hot blood running through my veins. I wandered, but I was not lost. Not lost. I was not lost. My knees buckled underneath me, and I collapsed; Colliding into a blinding light, only to roll over and be caressed by a blanket of clouds above me. The stars had sought refuge in hiding places, refusing to accept wishes. My lips had moved, but silence penetrated my mind. I was a stranger in my own world. My mind had slipped in and out of consciousness; an out-of-body concept hovered in front of me, only seemingly tangible. I was so free, yet confined to a brush stroke in the snow. Lights flickered in the sky to remind me of the distance. The frozen water beneath me had proven the theory of layers. I was merely a layer above the snow, above the soil, beneath the clouds, merged in oxygen, flittering behind carbon dioxide - beneath my dreams. In my dreams, tangled, desperate for separation in the faintest sense. Oh, how I felt detached.

- Kaiden